I don't know what to do anymore, it's christmas time again, that time of year where everyone's all happy and buying presents for their friends and all lovey dovey. Fuck that anyway. It's my first christmas without friends. I don't know why it's bothering me. I guess it's just coz everyone's outside having fun, but I've nobody to do that with. I don't even know what that's like, never had a steady friend before. Why? I think there can only be one answer to that...coz I'm an asshole, some way or another, it's the only answer if NOBODY likes me. It's not as if I've been annoying anyone, or whinging all the time, because I've kept to myself completely. It's eating at me, slowly...I just wish things could change for me, I've tried so hard, but I get nothing back. I'm sad. I'm a dope. So...yeah...loner.